What God knows about me
Is more important
Than what others
Think about me.
It has been an interesting month. I went back in for surgery on both my arms. I just had to go to the hospital with "Santa". All the nurses and visitors just had to come and look. Everything went well, all the metal is out of my one arm, and the tendon in my other was also repaired, so for the first time in a very long time, I am nearly pain free. That is a good thing.
Just before my surgery, someone drove into my Post Office, literally. It made quite the mess and has taken a few weeks to clean up. The week before, the pipes burst in the attic. Two completely separate cleanups and four different crews of men. I never knew so many people in my small town could think so badly of me. It has been hard. I have been flipped off, sworn at, yelled at, complained about and pretty generally dished all around.
It has been hurtful and disappointing to say the least.
I have actually been surprised about how angry people can be over a situation that was not our fault in the first place. Yet, we live in a society where inconvenience in a real anger issue. I have really had to work on believing the best of myself and also of not getting angry back.
It has been a loooooong three weeks.
Finally, today, nearly all the work is done and the building can be opened again after hours so that people can get their mail all day long.
I have had some experience thinking about the difference between what God thinks of me and what the town thinks of me. My Heavenly Father knows exactly who I am. He knows my name, He knows my weaknesses, He knows my strengths. He knows how I respond, who I am right now, and even who I want to be.
Sometimes, I think the hardest thing to do is to accept who you are and where you are within yourself. To recognize that you are not, and never have been, who others think you are. That their opinions aren't what is important as you live your life. The One whose opinion matters most of all, already accepts you and loves you for yourself. He will mold you, lift you and magnify you if you will only hold your head up, your arms out, and walk with Him.
He knows that which is most important of all.
He knows who I can become.